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Ten Years...
May 15, 2007Shockingly....my high school 10 year reunion is this weekend.
I haven't decided whether or not I am going.
Ten years ago...I walked across the stage at Wilkerson Grines Arena in Fort Worth in my green gown and gold tassles and was a graduate of Western Hills High School. It was 1997.
Everything since then has seemed a blur. I got to thinking about it this weekend again, it's been more than five years since I have been in Wichita Falls. Five years...and that point was driven home when I was hanging out with some friends from church at home that I remember being freshman in high school...and now they're graduated and married.
It's almost like time has stood still for Jason over the last 5 years and everything I am familiar with back home has gone on without me. I mean, the last five years I have lost my grandmother, graduated college (finally), worked into a full time job doing something I'm really good at, and gone through a bunch of girlfriends, but none of them longer than 8 months and none of them materializing into what they probably could have been.
But none of that seems nearly as significant as the things that have happened to my friends in Fort Worth.
Maybe my sense of self-worth is skewed, I dunno. But it was bothering me today.
I haven't purchased my $60 ticket to my 10-year reunion yet. I don't know what's keeping me from doing it.
Part of the problem is this...I didn't have that many close friends in high school, I had a lot of people that knew me, but I wasn't one of the ultra-popular hot guys or anything like that. And I'm not sure I want to spend an evening eating and drinking with a bunch of people that I didn't really know the first time a decade ago.
A lot has happened to me since high school, how many people really have to hear the entire gory story. Or how many of them really want to hear why I ditched all of my high school friends for the new, cool fraternity guys in college.
The same college guys that played a big part in my greatest downfall of all time.
Honestly, I've give up a lot of things to be back in high school where everything was safe and harmless fun. I've worked really hard over the last 10 years to get back to the same type of guy I was back then.
Careless and carefree. Fun and goofy and not worried about what my future will hold.
I'd like to think that I've made it as close to that guy as I can.....sometimes I feel like I'm right there. Other times, I feel like it's been 10 years since I graduated high school.
Posted by Jason Palmer at 5:18 PM | Permalink | Comments (1)
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Like you I really didn't have that many close high school friends. I enjoyed college a heck of alot more. I didn't go to my reunion and I doubt I'll ever go to one.
